27 December 2010

Working Out the Bends

I think one of the "resistances" that keeps me from writing is that I wonder if people really care what I have to say. Do they really want to hear me?

And as I ponder that thought, I realize that its insecurity and insecurity is ultimately rooted in selfishness. And all selfishness is sin. I'm reading a book by Chris Seay called The Gospel According to Jesus. In one chapter he describes sin very simply. We often hear it defined as "missing the mark," which is accurate, but what mark? What's our target? Our target is relationship with God and people. Remember Jesus said the greatest commandment is to love God and the second is to love your neighbor. (Matthew 22:37-40.) All sin is relational. It limits or breaks or destroys our relationships.

I'd have to say one of my biggest struggles with sin is with judgment. It is SO EASY to fall into judgment before we even realize it. Well, before I even realize it, I should say.


So I know that I'm judging people (and myself) by thinking no one will care what I have to say. Because if even one person gets something out of it, then that's all that matters. God gave me a desire to write. To share words. I. Love. Words. My Creator made me that way.

In the Fall, the internal mirror that was designed to reflect my Divine Creator to the world was bent at odd angles that cause me to reflect back in on myself, but Jesus redeemed me from that and as my mind is renewed and I work out my salvation (Phil. 2:12), those bent places begin to be straightened out and I'm able to better reflect my Savior to those around me.

(Thank you to Chris Seay and The Gospel According to Jesus for inspiring this post.)

2 comments:

  1. Selfishness and Judgment are things I too, am working to overcome also.
    I love blogging but have no ability to write. I want to be good but don't know how to even get there. So, I decided a long time ago that even if no one ever reads my blog it will be my journal and so now I write more for me. I know that I can always go back years from now and be reminded of all the things I wrote and see the different journey's God had me on. It becomes quite exciting when you look at it like that.
    So, be encouraged. Keep writing and fulfill the passion God has placed in your heart.
    Rachel

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