Our Story: BEFORE

For most of my life, I've been living in the wilderness of  "just barely enough."

I have so, so much to be thankful for and I know we have so much more than some. But I also know this isn't how our Father God wants us to live — barely getting by, always behind.

But we have so much to be thankful for. I see the things other people are going through and I wouldn't trade for all the money in the world. But are we experiencing the abundant life Jesus' sacrifice provided?

I want to have all of our needs met, abundantly supplied, so that we can give into every good work. We are givers and its painful when we see a need and we can't give.

This Christmas is supposed to be — is going to be — Lord, I believe, help my unbelief — different! Abundant! In every way.

We've found peace and joy in little to nothing, can we still have peace and joy in plenteous abundance?

The last two years have been especially pressured. Transition. In the midst, God has miraculously come through over and over. But its time to walk into the spacious place — to live in God's abundant provision. Twenty years ago, Dick Mills prophesied Psalm 66:12 to us:

You let men ride over our heads;
    we went through fire and through water;
yet you have brought us out to a place of abundance.

This is our BEFORE...the AFTER is coming, I know it. So I'm sharing the before while it's now, authentic, and true.

We've had beautiful, sweet glimpses and I'm so grateful.

After the pause, after the quiet pondering, "Have I said too much? Have I said too little? Do I sound ungrateful, grumbling and complaining?" After He speaks, "Peace. Be Still," I'm not looking for answers, I'm just looking for Him. I've seen His star in the East and I've come to worship Him.